[::: Latest Journal Entry :::]

In life we have to make decisions. Most decisions are defined when someone makes a deliberate action in a certain direction, after weighing up pros and cons. The decision is then concluded to be a success or a failure based on how close it comes to the ideal result that comes from the reason for making it. So a decision is normally defined by making an action in a direction.

It is strange that decisions are normally defined in this way, yet are rarely defined by when someone simply allows things to flow in the direction they are already flowing in.

Most people go by, not realising a decision needs to be made. Its way too easy to just keep going where the current takes you and not really question why it continues to go that way, or whether its for the best.

I'm a guy of tradition and loyalty. But i also hate the idea of being stagnant and comfortable to the point where i dont want to move, even if i know i have to. I'm a guy who doesnt like to gamble, but realises that sometimes you have to make tough efforts.

I've been at deviantART for four and a half years now. In many ways i love the place, i have some great memories here and met some really amazing artists and some cool people too. I've met a lot of people who are active for a while, then just fade out - to the point where you're not sure if theyre there or not.

I'm a decision making kinda guy. I'm pretty binary - on or off. If i know what has to be done i'll do it.

I know i need to leave deviantART. The things it once offered for me have now become trappings. It's a comfort zone i need to break away from. Its been an invaluable, incredible tool and resource for me over these years but the history I associate this place with is a direction i no longer wish to persue.

A safety net is a great thing in many ways. But it can make you scared of failure. And of trying to do what you know you need to do. Rather than gripe about all the things i have problems with about this site, i would rather remember it for the good things about it - and not bring it down. For me, this is moving forward, to the next step. It is far from me giving up on anything. I'm ready to grow and move, become more complete. Like something out of Rez?

So, I will be leaving. Not immediately, but soon. I have yet to find out the precise options for disabling accounts, so I have to look into that.

But for those few that do read my long journals that arent headed "HOW TO BE POPULAR ON DEVIANTART", thanks for reading this.

I'm on facebook if you want to stay in touch - Martin Houlden
I'm on msn if you want to add me there - opticneuralinterface@yahoo.co.uk
My website (where i will be moving to and working from) is [link]
My xbox live is "oni v9"

Thanks dA *salutes*

[::: Plans :::]

Currently on a placement year at Blitz Games in the Midlands, England, between my Second and Fourth Year studying Computer Games Art at Teesside University in Middlesbrough, in the North of England. Travel home to Lincolnshire to see my family and friends. Putting all my effort into my course, hopefully continuing a career in the games industry or associated industries. Fulltime course up until June 2009, but willing to take offers of comissions and always interested to heard of any interesting projects people have. [link] (go here for more information on me and project information)